xLAURA

Day 10.

2011-01-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

First day of school, and it gt nothing to do with me! Result is on the way to be sent to peirce and all the secondary school in singapore. This is so not funny! Anyway, been working those few weeks and i have fun working tmr too. tata! oh gosh, i miss going to school! :D

xlauraaaaaa
It been so long, since i ever smile when i was reading my msg.
it been so long since i ever wanted to see what's next.

MBS.

2010-12-24T23:49:00.003+08:00

First of all, merry Christmas! ( although it's not 12am yet ) anw, i have make myself useful for this holiday by working hard hard hard! :D I kind of enjoy working at MBS and i have also learnt new thing. Example, flexible reaction ( when someone catch us slacking ) run fast ( when GSA trying to giv us more job ) and many many more! HEHE!

Things that i like working in MBS :
I have a grp of nice friends and able to work with them just make my day as we can play, laugh, and work together.
Job is easy and able to slack.
GSA is nice and friendly. ( esp level 26, 38 and 41 GSA )

Things that i hate working in MBS:
Group with people that i dun really like.
Room is dirty and smelly.
GSA is mean and irritating.
thousand of room to clear = tiring.

As much as i love working, i love hanging and meeting up with my friends! :D I have fun on shermane's bday and all those stuff! Meeting some of my friends out soon for dinner and maybe dgoing friend's hse and stuff! :D I think i really need to go some shopppppppping! :D

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Some told me that i have a pair of big hands.
So why isn't my hands big enough to hold on everything?

2010-12-12T21:28:00.002+08:00

I can't remember how long have it been. A few years back that's all i remember and a few years later which is now, i somehow still can't get over the fact. It's all fake, but it's beautiful, ya. that's what i always thought but somehow it's not the same anymore. Sometimes, i just wish i can be that strong.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
perhaps i'm just a baby,
wishing that everything is fine.

Mistake.

2010-12-02T08:51:00.004+08:00

I begin to wonder, everything is a mistake. From the starts, to the ends. I do not have the courage like anyone do, neither do i think it's wrong, but i rather choose to run away.

xlauraaaaa
我开始失去了勇气
所有过去全都变成伤害
到了最后我选择离去

Fairytale.

2010-11-25T23:49:00.002+08:00

24/11/10
Prom was ... FUN! i will post the pic as long as i have it or if i still gt the mood to post! making up, doing hair, going around to shop for ur stuff, isn't we just so lucky? dressed up like a princess and prince, our one night fairytale. Dancing on the dance floor, jumping around, having fun with all ur friends, what more could you ask for? okay, last night of spending time as a Peircean together. well, i will miss all those good and bad times! and i always believe that this is not the end but a new beginning. :D
25/11/10
Okay, after all those good times, it's time to work! i have a tough day but fun. it's tiring, but will get use to it! Both my legs can't move now! Anyway, i will be a happy girl at the end of the month! $$$. work tomorrow! OMG!

xlauraaaaaaaa
If this is a fairytale, and i'm the princess, where is my happily ever after?

Life is just full of suprises.

2010-11-23T22:14:00.004+08:00

Okay, Holiday is goooooood! :D i love slacking and do nothing! anyway, I have a job and will start on this thu! which means i have to cancel my movie plan! :( Prom is tomorrow! and i seriously kind of regret going. oh well, let's look at the bright side, what could possible go wrong on that day? :D

anyway, life is just full of surprises! I was so damn shock! eh? okay, i don't wish to say much here seriously, becoz it's really nothing and it don't concern anyone. Is just i can't believe my eyes! eh? ??? wanted noe what is it? it dun concern ANYONE!

But there is something that concern people! war between north and south broke up. :( haiz, after the korean war don't they realise no one is really a winner no matter what the outcome? hope they stop the fight before it is out of control!

xlauraaaaaaaaaa
If this is real, should i go for it?

2010-11-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

Holiday is so-so. I have fun for the first 2 days and the next 2, i just rot at home and watched anime :D Tomorrow going for a job interview, wish me luck!

Holiday really keep me thinking... that much that this few days, i dreamt about a similar dream. I wouldn't say is it a nightmare because i found myself smiling away when i'm awake, but neither it is a sweet dream because it taste so bitter and sour. Perhaps it's time to think now after all those years and asking myself what do i really want.

xlauraaaaaa.
This was never the one i planned

HOLIDAY! :D

2010-11-13T17:53:00.005+08:00

My HOLIDAY IS HERE! :D Okay, I spent my first day of holiday in GYM! :D Met Suriansono and Gabriel first. Planning to buy something for Lyn May, but empty hand home. Gym next, Felix joined us later. I weight myself in, and I freaking gain some weight! Terrible! not just about the weight thing. One hour plus in gym made me felt like forever! This shows how weak I am now. I ran 5 mins, and it totally KILL me. I shall go gym every week! if not it totally a waste of my money!

Toking about money, I need to find some job to do. I don't wan to rot at home and die. :D of course, shhoooopppping! and meet up with many people? well... wait! HARRY POTTER HERE I COME! :D hehe. It been aged since i stepped in the cinema. So not going to miss that show. Anyway, I don't mind anyone who wanted to go for a food marathon with me! :D ya.. "FOOD" something that u just hate and LOVE! :D okay, I'm going to spend my second day of holiday in Lynmay's hse :D So... what about third day? OH MY GOD!

xlauraaaaaaaaaa
I'm trying to be strong,
but the strength I'm having is washing away.

If.

2010-11-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

Ms khai : you may now check your paper.
checking in process...
den suddenly, everyone smiling to themselves...
CHEY! VENICE COME OUT, NO WONDER ALL SMILE LA! HAHA!

okay, as what i'm saying, venice came out! :) yay! s.s is seriously not as bad as history, but i afraid my link a bit ... let's PRAY! :D ohh by the way, please stop praying to Cambridge BECOZ THEY DON'T MARK THIS PAPER NEITHER DID THEY SET IT! okay okay, what's done is done. Art and chinese next. I shall chiong my art today so tmr i can relax! anw, i'm totally a pig. OINK OINK! :)

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I will goes crazy if you know my name.
I will run around like crazy women with a smile on my face if you tell me you remember me.
I will smile to myself the whole day and people will think I'm crazy if you just smile at me.

I'm not her.

2010-11-06T22:27:00.009+08:00

I think i'm going to be sick! My head is super duper heavy. :( life sux. Next week is the last week of Os and yet i have 5 papers! Time is seriously not on my side neither. I have 10 pieces of art, 2 more chp for s.s, some chinese notes and my science MCQ. okay okay, i shall stop complaining. because looking at the bright side, Os is ending in less than 1 week time! most importantly, i am a lucky girl, i have helpful seniors! :) hehe. thanks Nicholas for helping me to brainstom! and thanks eunice for totally saving my life! she taught me how to do development drawing. :)))) she totally save my time for thinking and killing thousand of my brain cells, and of course, thanks michelle and kim for some photos! Now my s.s! should i study healthcare and population or sri lanka? or both? :( I dun wan study for healthcare and population but i happened to dig out ms wong's notes! so shld i study? mmmmmm.....

Now now now, i shall start doing my work. LAST WEEEEEEEEEEK :D. hehe. anw, i found some new and nice show on internet! :) i watched 2 episodes today and i am totally in to it! damn it! not a right time! shall watch it after Os! control control control. team lauren

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa
i'm different as what u think i am,
way too different.

Why can I be me?

2010-11-05T18:10:00.002+08:00

I thought i understand life... well, it pretty simple isn't? Perhaps. "Everything happens for a reason", i somehow get what this means. Something like, We fall in order to learn how to stand. We laugh in order not to cry. We study in order to get a good result. We date in order to fall in love. But if so, why there are so many weird things happening which I can't find a reason in it.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaa
The weirdest of all, is I can't believe I actually do.

1234.

2010-11-05T14:41:00.002+08:00

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you

Error.

2010-11-03T19:01:00.004+08:00

I can't rmb how it ends, perhaps because it never does.
But I do rmb how it started, when u first entered,
I thought, "what a beautiful person."
Then one year passed, other had gone, one next and another is coming
and I still think the same way.
Finally I started to realise and then i finally understood,
I was just holding on a memory that don't exist.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Because, and then.

2010-10-31T19:12:00.010+08:00

Okay, i am so suppose to study right now... BUT! something just caught my attention! :) Okay, i went to one of my ex-coach's facebook profile and i saw this beautiful photo! It is the nicest and the most beautiful photo that i have ever seen in my entire life. hehe. looking at her wedding photo make me smile to myself! HAHA! okay, it is seriously very sweet and nice :) i give her my blessing! :)

I suddenly feel like learning photography now and yes! I HATE PHYS! that's the reason why i am not studdddddddddyiiiiiiinggggg now now now now

xlaurraaaaaaaaaa

Off.

2010-10-28T22:54:00.004+08:00

Life sucks. I can feel that marks are flying away from my pocket and yet all i could do is to sit there and watch them fly far far away from me.

We are weird, We all are. When there is still a long period of time before exam, we always thought, aiya, exam still long. Study later la! When exam is only a few weeks/months away, we den started to study and say, " why din't i start it early? If i can go back, I promise i will study hard!" When the paper is coming, we hope it faster end and at the same time, we are all afraid... " what if i can't do the quest?" So NOW! paper is finally over, and den now, we worried. HOW AM I DOING? DID I SCORE? CAN I PASS OR GET A? and finally, we got back our result, and den we will think, should have work a little bit harder! SO WHY ARE WE NOT DOING SO? Life just sucks.....

To continue with that, I think i am such a unfilial daughter....

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Boys never once prove me wrong,
Girls never once prove me right.

Last run.

2010-10-23T22:37:00.002+08:00

Then i rather reply on myself.

Shine

2010-10-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

I never once thought i would say this,
I never once dare to think about it.
it's seem far away, it's seem impossible.

xlauraaaaaaaaaa
I have yet to learn to express my love.
I have no confidence,
but i know the outcome.

THANK YOU!

2010-10-14T18:49:00.004+08:00

Graduation is over, but i would really like to thanks you guys for those memories.

thank you Ms Lau, for giving me all the finical support.
thank you Mr, Mrs chia, and Mr lee, who come back on sat to giv us extra help.
thank you xie lao shi, huang lao shi, mr tan yj, for making chinese fun
thank you mrs neo, mr phua, ms hong and mrs poh for teaching me english.
thank you ms lee, mdm koh and ms low for helping me even if i'm not their student
thank you mr chan, mr song, ms pang and mr shahari for teaching me science
thank you mrs yau for being the mother of sec 5.
thank you ms khai for teaching me both history and s.s.
thank you ms wong for making history and s.s so interesting & i still rmb wat she taught.
thank you ms ong and mr phua for helping me so so so much in art.
thank you mdm foong and ms fida for just simply being so nice to me.
thank you mrs low, mdm yeong, ms tan and lee lao shi for spending those time in netball
thank you mr siva, mr cheng and mr lee bk for teaching me math.
thank you all those teachers! for all those memories.

Lastly, thank you all those friends, juniors, seniors, schoolmates and classmates
i wouldn't list anyone of you.
because without any of you, school wouldn't be the same.
& if i really did, i know i will take forever and i really don't wish to leave anyone out.
thank you friends!
dear sec 5s and 4es all the best for Os level!

xlauraaaaaaaa
I didn't cry doesn't mean i'm a cold blooded.
I didn't cry because this isn't a forever goodbye.

"Goodbye."

2010-10-13T23:30:00.004+08:00

I have enjoyed my 5 years, and that's goes it.
Goodbye my secondary school life.
I hate the school that much that i wanted to leave,
but i love this school for giving me so much joy and fun.
Goodbye Peirce.
I'm proud to say this, I'm a sec 5 NA's student,
that all once make a history of Peirce.
Goodbye my dear sec 5s.
I have enjoyed with u guys around, without any of u,
school will be different.
Goodbye my schoolmates and classmates.
I love to complain and say about teachers,
but thanks for everything that u guys did!
Goodbye my teachers.
I was once a Peirce's netballers,
and i always will.
Goodbye netball.

Goodbye! may one day we see each other again ( NOT Os LEVEL PERIOD! ) we will all change to be a better person and someone that we always dream to be. We once cried, fought, laughed and smiled, but the journey didn't stop here. Because every goodbye is a new beginning and those new beginning shows a new stage of life we are going through once again. So let's just say goodbye for now, and study hard for Os!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaa

" We laugh in order not to cry "

2010-10-11T20:48:00.004+08:00

What, Why, Where, When, How,
I couldn't answer.
so stop asking me.
I tried to figure out,
but i couldn't
so stop stressing me.
There's thing that i couldn't use words to explain,
there's thing that i just not sure,
so stop wasting time and doing silly thing.
It's just not worth it, is not worth it, it never once was and it not going to be.
so forget it, leave it, let go of it.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaa

I'm weird, but i'm not wrong.

2010-09-23T21:59:00.007+08:00

My heartbeat is racing,
I think i could heard it loud and clear.
My heart sank,
when thousand of thoughts running through my mind.
I remembered, I still remember,
but it's just a memory after all.

My hands were cold and it were shivering,
there was a tons of weight hanging on my legs that i couldn't go forward,
I tried to walk, I ran, but I stopped in the end.

My eyes were red,
I felt run down after all those time,
even before i closed my eyes,
I remembered, I still remember,
the memories that keep flashing back...

But it's just a memory after all,
it's fading, i can't remember anymore.
how i used to...
I just can't remember anymore.

Memories are fading, the feeling is gone,
bring me back, teach me and help me
so i could recall back...
how it feel to be happy again.
I want my smile back.

Can you hear it?
They were dancing, singing and cheering
My contemporaries were celebrating,
making funny noise, acting like a little monkey,
Can you see it?

I can, I was watching,
but i sudeenly forgot... I forget,
forget how it was supposed to be,
when i was happy,
when i smiled,
when i laughed from the bottom of my heart.
I forget how to be happy again,
so bring me back, teach me and help me.
so i could be happy again.

I'm gonna be fine.

2010-09-19T22:16:00.003+08:00

32 DAYS TO GO. STUDY HARD EVERYONE! :))

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaa
it doesn't matter how far you are,
as long as i know u are somewhere there,
it's enough, that's enough.

2010-09-08T20:52:00.003+08:00

I think soon my hair is going to stand up like this crazy cat! well, although i still find myself quite slack, but my mental is super stress up right now. I keep thinking that i have no enough time! It's like the time is now running every single second

Okay. I need to let my brain to relax now. Someone please teach me how to meditate.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Dream

2010-09-04T20:45:00.006+08:00

hehe. did i talk about going Beijing? oh yes! after going Beijing i wanted to go Europe to study! :) And travel around the world. I wanted to go places like Egypt, I wonder by then the Pyramids will still be there anot and Venice too. Hope Venice will not drown. and and and Africa! :)

hehe. but FIRST! i shall go study for my Os. Well, those wishes may not come true, but at least i try, and dream about it. No harm dreaming right? LET'S DREAM BIG TOGETHER! and LET'S WORK HARD TOGETHER FOR THIS. I WANT TO TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD! Someone please pay me to do that! :)

xlauraaaaaaaaa

Maybe life just about how you think it is.

2010-09-01T12:51:00.002+08:00

If i have the money, i wanted to go Beijing one day, and stay there for one year! oh pls, i am not crazy! :) I just feel like studying in Beijing, to bush up my Chinese and understand the culture! and I find China history very interesting too. hehe. I wanted to know more about three kingdoms. AHHHH! okay okay. i shall study hard for my Os so i can go Beijing! :) hehe

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaa

How i wished, I'm still a kid.

2010-08-28T19:53:00.004+08:00

Remember when my mother wasn't there with me, i was so afraid.
Remember how i snatched the toys away from my sister and played silly game with my cousins
Remember how i used to run around like some crazy little girl.

But I'm 17 now.
I no longer afraid to be alone,
I no longer snatching toys with my sister,
I no longer playing silly game that i used to think it's fun, because i am 17.

Remember when i first entered my pri school, one of the pri 5 senior taught me how to buy food.
Remember how i used to say i friend you, i don't friend you.
Remember the way i played catching with my friends.

But I'm 17 now.
I'm too old to play catching,
I wouldn't say i don't friend you, i say f**k you,
I don't need anyone to teach me how to buy food, no, not anymore.

Remember when i was sec 1, and think, that's goes my pri school.
Remember how scared and shy i was, toward my seniors and teachers.
Remember the first HSM came out, everyone in the school was singing.

But I'm 17 now.
I'm the most senior in the school,
I wasn't shy, I wasn't scared,
the feeling just no longer there.

Words just came out from my mouth, climbing and running here and there without afraid of falling, doing things that i don't ever think i will, dare to dream and believing in a fairytales. but hey, I'm 17 now. I don't run and climb around like a monkey, because i know i may fall. I have to think before i speak, and doing things with doubt, wondering, can i make it? and i'm no longer believe in a fairy tales. because i'm 17

So how much do you remember? how you used to smile and laugh without worrying anything. I just want to be a kid. That is where everything started, and this is how everything ended, because i'm 17 now.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaa.

2010-08-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

Why do we believe in something that don't exist?

O-M-G! Os in 60 days time! so not cool. Anyway, This few weeks is going to be a busy weeeeeeek!
I am a very hardworking girl! VERY VERY HARDWORKING! :) HAHA! DAMN BHB I DUN CARE, I WAN TO PRAISE MYSELF! First, i went to find ms lee at night with 3 8 yesterday! And i'm going to join that 3 8 every tue to find her! :) YAY! Next, i'm going to look for mdm koh once a week for phys! OMG! haha. i actually understand what she is teaching today! and next on, i'm going to look for mrs yau for my terrible english! ISN'T I'M JUST SO HARDWORKING! HOPEFULLY I CAN CARRY ON THIS FOR THE NEXT 60 DAYS!

hehe, LET'S ALL JIA YOU FOR Os EVERYONE! :)

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa
that's life.

"right"

2010-08-24T16:57:00.005+08:00

When i say I'm just kidding, doesn't mean that i don't mean it.
When i say I'm fine, doesn't mean that I'm okay.
When i say i can't be bother, doesn't mean that i don't care.
When i say i need to be alone, doesn't mean that i don't wish someone to be there.

If only life is as simple as 1 + 1, den everyone wouldn't have to snatch their head for answer.

IT-COMPLICATED!

PRELIM! HEREEEEEEEEEEE I COMEEEEEEEE :)

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaa.
I can't stop myself from feeling,
neither can i stop myself from thinking.

TEA!

2010-08-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

HELLO! MISS ME?

I had a great day today! and for once, i love school like mad!

First, i met lyn may and shermane for breakfast and off to school! Have fun with the class. Took pictures with 5As. We are the best! :) Next, 5A2 WON THE YOG CHEER BABY! :) Have cake for our prize and decided to share it with 5A1 and THANKS MRS YAU FOR CHEESE CAKE! After that, TEA with adeline, jasmine, shermane and lyn may! We ate our lunch first and off to tea chapter. We learnt how to brew tea and the white tea is nice. Hope to go there with the girls soon! :))

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa
"one meeting, one time"

2010-08-01T22:24:00.006+08:00

If I'm going to continue to spend my day like this, I'm so not going anywhere.
I need help for all the subjects! yet it's just so hard to find a teacher to help. sigh sigh sigh! Shall just depend on myself.

xlauraaaaaaa.
觉得自己真的好傻 , 好傻

lala

2010-07-18T15:08:00.005+08:00

Singapore is great! :) but for some reason, how i wish i am living in the western countries right now. sighhhhhhhhhhhh.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I just can't live without this beautiful lie.
I'm gonna be fine.
So just leave me there please.
I'm gonna be fine.
I just need a dream that i can hold on there.
and I'm gonna be fine.

Lost.

2010-07-10T18:52:00.005+08:00

Aiyo. Reading news made me so depress now. 2 PJC students killed themselves because of the "stress" in the school. Sighhh. This is really no good. I suddenly feel so stress now, although I'm not doing anything! Is it suppose to be our parents' fault for not being understanding? or the teachers giving us too much homework? the school giving us too much stress? or friends for not being there for us? or something is just wrong with Singapore's eduction? Sigh. Or maybe we are just so weak that we can't take the hard way? huh huh huh?

Whatever it is, we all understand this. In Singapore you can't live without that piece of paper . No paper = no future. sigh sigh sigh.

xlauraaaaaaaa
shooting stars isn't stars.

DEAD

2010-07-06T22:49:00.003+08:00

Blog is so dead! :)) shall update for the sake of people who want to read my blog! (actually i know none want to read my dragging, dry blog! just let myself be happy by saying tons of people wanted to read my blog like I'm so popular kid! Did i just say KID? )

okay, dear people, life is getting more and more busy. somehow, not really. oh well. School ends at 4.30 almost everyday! THANKS GOD IT'S WED TOMORROW! ( end school 1! omg, the different is so big!) This is how desperate i am. Nowadays, I hate art more than science! Jesus! I feel like dropping art!

People around is fine as usual. :) still so lovely! (most of them of course! well some... you know who? there that girl lor. and the siao boy! you know? YOU DON'T? of course you don't. because everyone seem to stay the way they are :) i guess, actually i don't care i just want to make my blog looks LONG)

Oh gosh. it is long enough? huh huh huh :) anyway, i feel so bad about lying! I shall really stop lying even it is a white lies! it's still lies my dear!

shall end this blog by saying : GO TO BED NOW! IT'S 11 AND THERE'S SCHOOL TOMORROW. SHOO SHOOO! oh ya, COME ON! STUDY WILL YOU? HUH HUH HUH? and last, I'M NUTS! :))

xlauraaaaaaaa
there's always beautiful things happen around you,
but perhaps it occur when everyone is sleeping,
that's why no one actually realise.

Beating.

2010-06-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

One more week of school to go! and early school is back! :( life just can't get any better! okay, at least something cheer me up today!

School today kind of waste of time, but i enjoyed my math lesson :) it's all about you world cup! some girls and I was like talking to mr chia about the world cup thing! sad. south Korean lost yesterday! After school went home change and pool next. My pool skill damn lously, but it was still a fun game. Home sweet home next and yes! my bed babe.

I saw this cute person today! :) oh my gosh! haha. i can't take my eyes away from that person. If only that cutie come ask me for my number... haiz. i confirm give! hope i can see that cutie one more time. hehe. pray hard! ( and no gf pls! ) :)))) lala.

xlauraaaaa.
You are a hacker that hacked inside my mind,
You are a stealer that stole my heart.
In short, if i am a judge, I will send you to death, because you are no different than a murderer

Goodbye holiday!

2010-06-15T19:16:00.002+08:00

My holiday had GONE! School is tomorrow! oh mine. GREAT! save money :) Okay, let's see where i stopped. BBQ on sat! Met the girls on sun and longboard at night. monday was sweet and nice! :) stayed at home! hehe. As for today, I went swimming and have a nice lunch talking craps. Okay, don't really feel like blogging nowadays! so... tata

ohhhhh! i watched a show last night. Is about animal being the hero and stuff. After watching how a elephant saved a girl's life during the 2004 tsunami. I realise something, so i must share it with the world! IT IS IMPORTANT! Next time when you see all the animals running in the same direction like nobody business, RUN WITH THEM! it sound silly! BUT JUST RUN LIKE YOU NEVER RUN BEFORE! because you are running for your life because something bad is going to happen. So, JUST RUN! talking about nature disaster, animals can sense it much more faster than we do! RUN AHHH!

xlauraaaaaa
Words are unspoken,
Actions aren't show,
but my heart is still beating every second.
Stay there, stay.

Oh money money.

2010-06-11T21:00:00.002+08:00

I went out yesterday to national library! It's super big! but no place to study! what the hell right! waste our time! Off to bugis ( again ) to buy some stuff and left.

Today, I went out again! To bishan library! YAY! there's place to study! We stayed there for like 1 hours - 2 hours! and we did study this time! Didn't really talk that much until the stupid boys, raven and matthew came. After that stupid Isabel suggested to go for a movie ( waste $! :( but nice show ) We left around 8+ and cecilia lost her ez-link card! my god. hope she can find it.

Tomorrow going for bbq! meeting raven first perhaps! to borrow his longboard for a day! hopefully he can lend to me :)) sunday going to out! I'M GOING TO BRING ONLY $5! so i will not spend much! SAVE SAVE SAVE!

oh gosh. holiday is ending soon! I really wanted to meet up with lots of people! pretty please?

xlauraaaaaaaaaaa
It's not alright.
It's not okay.
It's never going to be.
But life still go on isn't it?

secret shhh.

2010-06-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

This is how i started my day! I met Jiaxin to go school together for art and of course, I was slacking around there. Went home to change and have lunch and off to play pool! It's super fun and super tiring. Lastly, this is how i ended my day, dinner and home sweet home! I'm going to S-T-U-D-Y tomorrow! hopefully i can study instead of talking and fooling around.

A secret is no longer a secret if you tell someone else. Agree? so shhhhhhhhh...

xlauraaaaaaaa
You are my dirty little secret.

Home Sweeeeeet Home :)

2010-06-06T23:52:00.003+08:00

Okay, i love reading news nowadays! :) seriously, go read because it let us understand what is going on outside our world! :))))))

I went out today to study with Suz, Cecilia, Raven and Matthew! After studying ( fooling and talking) we went bugis to shoppppp! hehe. Everyone brought back a few plastic bags homeeee! Okay, each of us spent more than $30! I only bought a pair of shoes and bag! it cost $46 :( Dinner, PHOTO TAKING! ( it's been long since i ever take any pic ), all of us bought chewy junior home for family :)) (but my mummy don't want eat! :( and i really don't want let my stupid brother to eat them up! ) HOME SWEEEET HOME! :) Going to study with my chewy junior gang on wed! hopefully. LET STUDY HARD AND PLAY HARD!

MY SISTER IS OFF TO JAPAN :)) hehe. hope she enjoy there! and when she is back, SO IS MY NEW CAMERA!♥

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
It's wrong, because it's not right.
but since so, can you tell me why this is happening to me?

I LOVE MY COUNTRY!

2010-06-04T22:24:00.003+08:00

First, Greece got the gold medal of 2004 Olympics for spending too much =.-
Second, China is rising! and most of the Singaporean still living in their own world! HELLO! Chinese is always important! it's just now is even more important! so stop thinking English is good enough.
Third, Korean war may break out any moment! Imagine North and South Korea is going for another war like what happened for about 60 years ago. So who is the one who going to suffer? South and North Korean had never reached out any peace agreement ever since 1950-1953, and this make it worst. :(
LASTLY, be glad that that this is SINGAPORE! :)
I LOVE MY COUNTRY HEHE

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaa
Understanding is one matter but practice is another.

No longer three

2010-06-03T18:53:00.005+08:00

Who don't wish for their Prince charming (In some case Princess charming) to save them from the "EVIL" and live happy ever after like a fairy tales? Who don't wish to have a sweet and loving love story and be together with the one you love? Who don't wish to be happy? Just another fairy tales, again...

I went to school just now, for ART! and yes! I slacked there instead of drawing! Art is driving me nuts! I only got about 2 more months left to the DEADline! :( So stressful! There's art tomorrow! :)) and i'm going to study with Raven and matthew later on after my art! and sunday studying and SHOPPPPPPPING! it's the GEART SINGAPORE SALES! :)))

xlauraaaaaaaa

I just want to be happy, just like any other girl...

ruined it.

2010-06-02T21:48:00.003+08:00

I'm slacking at home! anyway, the biggest loser season 7 is super nice :) i LOVE Tara Costa! she always did her best in all the challenges she faced! oh gosh, hope she win :) SHE'S IN JILLIAN'S TEAM! YAY! :)

There's school tomorrow! :( how gosh! anyway, because of the wound, my leg is still pain! i didn't take care of it, i just leave it there! and here you go! HAHA! i think i need to chop off my leg if i continue leave it there!

Going to study on FRIDAY AND SUNDAY! :))) LET'S GO STUDY! BECAUSE I DOUBT ANYONE CAN STUDY AT HOME! HEHE

Treasure others before it's too late.
Cherish whatever you got now, before you regret.
Say I love you to the one you care because life is short and unpredictable.
If i hear one of this nonsense again, I will shout and scold at the person straight away, because why bother saying thing that you know that you will never do and so why bother telling this to others? Isn't it human's nature that we only learn when we make a mistake? huh huh huh!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa
take a look of me, the one who is standing there.

LONGBOARD ♥

2010-06-01T19:26:00.002+08:00

My Chinese paper was over! I wrote something wrong in the paper which may cause me in deep trouble, BUT! :) what done is done, so i don't really care now! :)) everyone should think the same way as me! So don't be upset if u did badly for your paper! there is second chance out there and work hard for other subjects!

I met the guys and sera at night for LONGBOARD! :) haha! IT'S FUN! I fell down! :( so ugly now. Okay, it was damn funny how i fell! and the wound is super at the wrong place. HAHA! I'm using raven's lousy board to skate all the way down! and i turned here and there until i can't balance so i wanted to stop by using one of my leg! but... LOL! but is damn fun! :))))))))))))

anyway, netball BBQ is coming! it's on 12 june. spread around and confirm with us!

♥ thx everyone who wishes me all the best for chinese!
xie xie lao shi, xie xie michelle, xie xie shuey, xie xie isabel, xie xie hee jin, xie xie laura lim,
xie xie weijing, xie xie QIN AI DE :)

xlauraaaaaaaaaa
I just go that far now that i can't say i can't,
because i can.

2 days!

2010-05-29T21:17:00.002+08:00

oh gosh! I can't believe my Chinese paper is on Monday! THIS Monday! Okay, actually i do believe my Chinese paper is on Monday! HAHA! my mind tells me, i need to be scare of this! i need to study now! but my heart just don't feel this way.

I went out to study with Isabel yesterday, and shuey joined us afterward! We went bugis after that, and i bought some stuff :) HAHA! i didn't go longboard again! because the time when i saw the missed calls, it's already 11! my phone is really useless!

As for today, i woke up early in the morning to go school! xie xie xie lao shi for coming back to school for us! but i reached home, and slept for 6 hours =.-

MONDAY THE PAPER JIA YOU! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
thanks for making me laugh when i'm down, for telling me someone actually care.

PS QUEEN!

2010-05-27T21:50:00.003+08:00

I had 3 hours of Chinese as usual, but, 3 more hours for after school remedial! But, i enjoyed it as usual too. I think i really need to thanks xie lao shi when my Chinese paper is over! it doesn't matter how i have done, because she really put in effort to help us! She even willing to come back on Saturday! :)))))))) ohhh! and xie xie mrs neo for the wonderful pen! HAHA! everyone is like using it now, and i love that pen! Hope it's my lucky pen.

I had returned the storybook back, yes, i haven read finish! I'm going to borrow it after my Chinese Os. Ohhh! HAHA! I THINK PEOPLE AROUND ME IS RIGHT! MY HP IS USELESS! don't contact me that much, it will take forever for me to notice! and yes! :( The guys, sera and heejin went longboard! I want to join them, serious! But my title say it all. I didn't go, i am really very tired eh! try having 6 hours of Chinese and no afternoon nap! :( I promise if Friday they are going, I confirm go! :)

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa
If you play cafe world, I will make sure i will cook your favour food and name my cafe after you, and we will take care of it together hand in hand.
If you play pet society, I will make sure i will design my house like your dream one, so you will stay and live with me and never feel like leaving

Mess.

2010-05-26T20:49:00.002+08:00

Life is in a mess, in many ways. There are things in life we can control, and of course, things that we can't. So yes, life is totally in a mess, when we can't control not only the things that of course we can't control like Singapore PMS weather and the dumb way other people's act and things that we are supposedly can be able to control but just turn out in a mess!

I'm trying hard to read finish "My Sister's Keeper" or as many pages as i can! I still got about 1/2 or perhaps 3/4 of the unread parts. Oh gosh. Julia Romano is funny, well, it is to me! especially her conversation with her twin sister, Izzy.

okay, this storybook is making me go crazy! I need to study for my chinese instead of reading this book! You know what? I actually wish someone pay me to read now. :) I'm going to clear this book! and borrow more books to read! :))))))))))))

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa
Your courage tells the world who you really are,
Your love story melt my heart.
But it doesn't matter now.
even if i have your courage ,
even if your love story made a diiferent.

MONDAY IS ♥

2010-05-24T19:03:00.002+08:00

It's hot, but it's okay. :)

It's cold, but i don't care :)

because, IT'S MONDAY! :) i always have tons of energy when it come to "reopen of school" and yes, when days goes by, ... haiz. But who cares? because, IT'S MONDAY! :) i have 4 hours of chinese! and yes, i'm glad that i had pulled it off, actually, i kind of enjoyed this! Last period was terrible. Ms khaitook over Mr chia! why is it terrible? of course the reason wasn't because ms khai took over the class, but! I have a parent meeting on wed! Chinese Os is 7 days left! still not working hard enough! :( OHH! Jiayi had lent me my sister's keeper! I'M GOING TO READ IT AFTER MY CHINESE HOMEWORK! :)))))))))))0

"It is so easy to think that the world revolves around you, but all you have to do is stare up the sky to realize it isn't that way at all."

my sister's keeper~

After all, it's nothing at all.

2010-05-22T18:52:00.002+08:00

what's the point of working hard when there is no one there to say well done? Perhaps nothing i do will ever gain acknowledge.

xlauraaaaaaaa
nothing going to make this feel better.

Storybook ♥

2010-05-21T18:59:00.002+08:00

oh mine, Days to O level Chinese is getting shorter! I have a tired week that tired that i have no energy to study :( school today was pretty fine i guess. I have 4 hours of Chinese today! but i kind of enjoy it! i went back home, all i can think of... SLEEP! :)

okay, anyway, I'm crazy in ♥ with this book "my sister's keeper" oh gosh! i never finish a book before! thus, i swear, I'm going to read finish this book! even if i have to lend or steal :)

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaa
Ignore, ignore, ignore.

Long day.

2010-05-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

I have a long day today! not really, perhaps i was too tired that's why to me it seem like lesson never going to end. I have 3 hours of Chinese! and all i did is a compo! i wrote a 5 pages long one, but i took 3 hours :( i really need to learn more Chinese words and learn to write faster! Chinese Os in 11 days time! ohh! i didn't study today, because i slept for 3 freaking hours! freak! I'm so glad today is thu because tomorrow going to be Friday! :) anyway, you know what? i have plan for my June holiday! hehe

STUDY with adeline, shermane and all straight after our chines paper :)
4 June going to study with raven! :) maybe calling more go!
5-15 June still planning! but still going to study hard :)
16 June SCHOOL ALL THE WAY! :(

that's about it. CHIONG ARHHHHHHHHHHHH! :)

xlauraaaaaaa
the next second when I'm awake,
i then realise that i'm been living in my own world for this few years.
but since now i'm awake, I going do what i'm suppose to do now.

12 days

2010-05-19T19:32:00.006+08:00

I wanted be stronger, much more stronger than who i am right now. I wanted to have the right to dream, dream like how others always do. Chinese Os is only 12 days away, i wanted to score, not just a B but a A. . I wanted to smile like I tio 4D at the end of the day when I'm looking at my result. I don't want to cry and show how weak i am, and saying words that regret. Lastly, I don't like being alone. I don't want myself to score or pass this by myself, I want the whole world celebrate with me with this joy and share it together. So study hard! and prove those who look down on you wrong, and those who support you right.

Today is not a good day! I had a tired day and stomach ache! because it's my first/second day. I got back all my result. Shock? surprise? disappointment? regret? sad? happy? Taking back the result is always a mixed feeling. I expected for art due to my nonsense prep and sci for not studying. Disappointment in Math and comb human. Regret for not doing much more when i know i need to, and of course, sad come in. I'm shock and surprise for my language papers, for passing, and yes. happy come in with a uneasy feeling. Because just passing is danger, I can only say myself is lucky. anyway, study hard everyone! for your Os! :)

xlauraaaaaaaaa
Not that i don't want to fall in love, is that i can't
because that heart that once belong to me,
is gone at the same day when u left.

Smile, and that's all is needed.

2010-05-18T20:41:00.004+08:00

I was laughing to myself yesterday mid-night and I enjoyed today! :) I think my coach is annoyed by me. i kept sending her dancing pig la! she made me laugh like siao. funny coach :) miss her and siyin! As for today, phys was super funny! the guys said that I'm a small little kid! WTH right? yes, I went for a movie with Jasmine, Shermane and Germaine! instead of finding ms khai for SBQ helps. Going to look for her next time when she's free. As for my result! I know some people is very keen to know right? HAHA i passed my math only! surprise? i only took back 2 papers la! HAHA! yes, i failed my science, what do you expect? I did the papers within 30-45 mins! what a long post today! :))))))))))))))

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Tomorrow come first or future?

thousand and thousand

2010-05-15T11:52:00.004+08:00

I wanted to blog and i got thousand of thing to say, but i don't know how to end it. There's thousands of thing happening, there's thousands of words unspoken, thousands of second passing by one by one. But what can we do? Nothing. Those changing mask masters need to prepare themselves before going up the stage to perform, yet we? we don't need any preparation, we can just change our face and be a two-faces person as fast as they did to change mask. Perhaps i also needed to learn that skill too. I'm tired, really tired, again. I just need a little help here and there. that's all i ask, is it really that much?

LALA! after being such a sad sad sad girl, I'M A HAPPY HAPPY GIRL! :) because i know that hard work DO pay off. why? let me share this with the WHOLE world, since i am so happy about it. you see, it just make me :) whenever i think of it leh! hehe. Okay, let's me share with u guys now, because after this test + that test, here and there! equal? prelim is over! :) lala. and I'm going gym later with Mrs min hao and blur queen! anyway, Qin ai de si yin just cheer me up by talking to me last night! and made me laughed at the computer screen like siao HAHA :) she's still so cute, and i still so crazy in love with her! lala. Ohhh bird bird made me laughed too :) and i like the breakfast i ate during fri with fishball phua phua and flower wang wang. :))))

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I'm not a superwomen, I need help too.

Don't say die.

2010-05-12T16:40:00.004+08:00

Life is just so fragile. It can just break down any moment and anywhere. You will never know what will happen in your life next. Maybe when you are playing happily at the playground, some pot just fall down on your head and you die. So let's think, do you really think killing yourself is being a coward? No, it's not. Do you know how much courage ones needed to put a end to their life? this courage is harder than telling other I'm sorry, I'm wrong or even I love you. But if you have the courage to end this life, why can't you have the courage to face this beautiful world? Those courage is enough for one to stand up again.

:( emo post. It's just so heart pain when someone you love had gone. OKAY! although this never happen to me. But when my uncle's son dead, i just can see how painful he was. Today, i read some yahoo stuff which link to a poly girl killing herself which was super long ago. As a Singaporean (KPO) i went yahoo search about her, and saw one of her friend's blog. (super kpo and by right, i'm suppose to do my art) her friend blog about how beautiful she was, and every single thing but she just die like this...

seriously, i need to do art!

xlauraaaaaaaa
life is so short, we knew.
But the only time when we started to cherish, is only the time we have lose it.

Cheater.

2010-05-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

Define cheat :

to behave in a dishonest way in order to win or get an advantage, especially in a competition, game, or examination.
to trick and deceive someone
unfaithful on your partners by going out with others

I hate liar, but cheater isn't any much better.

xlaura
If i am the biggest liar,
then you are the biggest cheater.

Do i look like i'm kidding?

2010-05-10T17:32:00.004+08:00

My feet is super itchy now! everywhere! :( anw, comb human down, left with math paper 2, science and art! and I am DONE with prelim! i didn't study for science! hehe. i got a feeling i confirm fail, decided to work hard after this prelim. But still will try to squeeze as many info as possible! tomorrow math paper 2 and phys paper! lala i have no school on wed! shall chiong my art now!

I'm not perfect. I maybe will get angry easily, but this doesn't mean I am unreasonable. I don't like to cry in front of others, but this doesn't mean I have no feeling. I maybe like to complain, but this doesn't mean I'm quiting. I cannot forget, but this doesn't mean I cannot forgive. I maybe changing, but this doesn't mean I am no longer me. I am not like everyone, but this doesn't mean I'm weird. I am suck, but this doesn't mean you rock!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
If life is as simple as 1 + 1,
perhaps everyone will live happily ever after.

22 days left.

2010-05-09T18:09:00.007+08:00

HELLO! my last post was so emo. Seriously, everyone should really study history! to let yourself know how fortune you are. okay okay, get down to business! first, HAPPY Mother's DAY! second, notes for cold war is done! let's start studying! third, i am super stress now. A few hours ago, i almost went crazy! i went around to tell people to send me picture about connection! lalala! art is driving me nuts! Okay la, thanks germaine for all those nonsense! thanks kim for sending me picture (i dunnoe what is that got to do with connection) and thanks matthew and boon for

helping! okay! i shall go back to my cute little notes!

xlauraaa

I'm just lying to myself,

but it doesn't matter, no, it doesn't matter anymore.

we were all once 3, where we believed in a world full of magic.

but now we are 17, living in a world full of lies

Another ugly face

2010-05-08T20:37:00.006+08:00

People do change, no doubt. Sometime is just about changing to the good or bad and sometime, is just about who is the one who is changing. It is very disheartening when someone said that you have change when you knew you didn't. It is very disheartening when you wanted to stop them but they just carry on. It is very disheartening that it can be in your control but is not when you didn't try. "No, she is not changing, he is also not changing, they are definitely not changing at all. No no, Neither am I. Is you." we always say this to other to protect ourselves. So now do you wonder? who is the one who is changing? Is it the person that you have been saying is changing, or is it you who are changing?

I don't care how others think of me, I don't care anymore. Neither do i care about what you think about them or how they think about this or that or what so ever. Every single day, there is someone celebrating their birthday and there is someone crying over for their love ones that had gone. Sound so wrong? A new life is born everyday yet someone have to go. Is out there in this world, yet we don't care. We just care for our own life, ourselves. Have you wonder how those people out there is dying and suffering? No. why? because we just don't care about how people dying out there and just care for how others think about us. There is war out there that we don't know, there is people suffering in many ways that we can't imagine. I swear, If i got power, i definitely will do something about it. I swear.

xlauraaaa
don't say that I'm changing because you have changed.

I don't care anymore.

2010-05-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

Life is getting harder each day and i don't like what is happening nowadays. I feel like bury myself with all those books. Life is just full of drama! I just wanted to build a room for myself with no door or window! because i really don't want to see what is happening outside! I know if i SEE something, I confirm will talk about it!

Chemistry paper is no kick! why? because i have finish it for like 45 mins. why? because i don't know how to do! oh gosh! i really don't care much about science! Okay needed to force myself to study. Just like what those adults like to say "it's for your own good" It is! okay. i didn't study today! i was too tired. I will start studying now! :)

xlauraaaa
You can punch me, kill me, destory me.
But i will still stand up until my very last breath

Ren

2010-05-06T14:13:00.003+08:00

HAHA! i don't know why am i blogging everyday! okay okay. i got too much thing to share with everyone! and tell everyone the "FUN" about studying. Studying is fun! seriously but not exactly.

Math paper 1 was okay. I think i do too fast! :( I even got the time to think about my s.s paper later on. S.S paper. oh dear. I'm been eating the s.s drug! yes, it's worth it... NOT! okay. the "DRUG" is powerful but too powerful that i can't stop my hand from writing! which mean... NO TIME FOR SB! how smart. Tomorrow is Chem! i haven start studying yet! BUT i'm going to. SOON! need a break now.

I think when people grow older, we are able to see more thing about life. "Ren shi dan chun de". But the fact that we are living in a world that full of competition, everyone just started to think about themselves only.

xlauraaaaaaa
Because yesterday had gone and today i'm no longer the same.

26

2010-05-05T21:19:00.003+08:00

When people change, we just can't do anything about it but to face it. It just amaze me how a person from that can change to this. okay, this is the fact about life that we can't change it. we tend to drift apart from people when we get closer to another. This is the time when we find the person is changing...

I went to study s.s after school for 3 hours! Study is really fun! HAHA i'm starting to fall in love with studying now. Not that i'm crazy! study outside make me feel like studying more. At home? mmm... hehehe. YOU SHOULD TRY! okay. s.s and math tomorrow. everyone is going nuts! all the best!

xlauraaaa
I promise.

27 days

2010-05-04T22:06:00.003+08:00

"Studying is fun!" okay, seriously, hopefully by saying that it make me feel like studying and stop thinking studying is boring! Let's see how much "DRUG" i have sallow... HAHA. okay, 2 more reasons (4 factors) for Fall Of Venice and I'm done! writing...! okay haha. i really think I'm not studying. i think I'm just copying but at least i DID copy. we must learn not to hug Buddhist leg at the very last min! people, STUDYING STUDYING!

I'm trying my best to think positive in life, please don't ruined it. I think when you have hope something very high, the more disappointment you will have. well, perhaps if you don't expect anything, there's no disappointment.

xlauraaaaaa
"unless you faint, puke or die if not keep going"

Today you will see...

2010-05-03T13:11:00.003+08:00

Dear blogger,
Tomorrow is Tuesday, which mean there's school tomorrow. KILL ME. i still got this and that and this haven do. yes, so tell me again, why am i still using com. i totally sux.

i feel like NOT doing anything for my art! not because i don't want to (somehow) but i really have no idea what to draw! nothing is in my mind now. BLANK! B-L-A-N-K! and my art exam is like ... next week? oh dear oh dear. oh dead! there is even a better news! my O level Chinese exam is in this month! after doing the prelim 1 i was so proud of myself for using the whole 4 page of papers! after going for a break i totally feel like I'm so going to fail my Chinese because others used 6 PAGE OF PAPERS!

okay, this is totally not helping. i really need to improve my English and Chinese, do something to my science and art and study harder for my math and comb human! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! so depress now.

Dear 5As : Study hard this time!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaa
I'm trying to ignore,
trying to pretend,
trying to get this out of my mind.
because nothing going to stop me now.

It don't make sense how it make sense.

2010-05-02T11:35:00.004+08:00

Seriously, all i can think of is exam exam exam. I'm so going to screw my art exam paper! i haven even do a single drawing. yes yes, kill me please, slap me, punch me and wake me up. Okay so not helping! I'm suppose to study now now now and do my art now now now!

why can't studying be more fun? I'm going to eat my S.S textbook for lunch! but it's just so hard to digest.

ohhh did i mention that, IT'S MICHELLE'S BIRTHDAY! =DD
and yes, most important is, TOMORROW IS HOLIDAY! no school, no exam. IT'S A BREAK! but not a study break!

tell me again, why am i still blogging? i sux.

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaa
why do people love thinking life is complicated?
how the hell does revenge and hate get into our life when we are only a student?
yes, tell me more about it.

2010-04-29T18:40:00.002+08:00

Dear blogger,
I AM SO DEAD!
so not studying and screwed up my english paper!
going to screw more paper tomorrow.
JIA YOU!
notes to self

START STUDYING CHINESE.
STOP EATING AND SLEEPING LIKE A PIG
STOP USING COM.
START STUDYING FOR OTHER SUBJECTS TOO.

bye byeeeeeeeeee

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
if life is a game,
i want to win.

Studying = FAT!

2010-04-26T21:53:00.003+08:00

OKAY! haha!
I TODAY DEN NOE I'M HAVING MY FIRST PAPER ON THU!
anw, lesson today supposed to be boring!
but... i kind of enjoy it!
let see,

CHEM = cannot make it
PHYS = talking to jia yi
ENGLISH = trying my best to listen to mrs neo
CHINESE = reading
(reading chinese compo is more tiring than playing netball!)
MATH = MURDER OF MY BRAIN CELLS

okay, since exam is coming, finally i have decided! to work my butt off.
BUT! studying make me fat! i can't stop eating T.T
the biggest problem is, I JUST STARTED!
omg, dunnoe how many KG i'm going to gain soon.
i start studying with MATH!
20 chap but 1 down, 19 to go! jia you!

xlauraaaa
there's time we wanted to run away from the reality,
but no matter how far we run, we just go back to the start

Just another lie.

2010-04-25T15:14:00.006+08:00

I HATE TEEN CRIBS MARATHON! =DD
can u believe that someone actually live in cave?
or maybe someone actually have a GYM in their house?
or maybe even BASKETBALL / MINI GOLF COURT/ INDOOR/OUTDOOR SWIMMING POOL/ THEATER?
OMG! ANNOYING SHOW! but i likeee ^^

xlauraaaaaaaaaaa
we cried, we fought, we laughed, we smiled,
but it's just turn out to be another lie.

Accepted.

2010-04-24T14:31:00.005+08:00

What did i do wrong this time?
well, boring day.
MUST find some boring stuff to do!
mmm... there's just thing in life we can't change yo.
but it's okay now it's okay now.

anw, lesser and lesser day to Os! D=

but still not studying. =/

xlauraaaaaaa
it doesn't make sense to let go of something you wanted so long,
but it also doesn't make sense to hold on when there's nothing there.

I learnt...

2010-04-23T16:39:00.004+08:00

I still remember... people around is always forcing me to study,
telling me i can do it, i can do it!
for once, i finally made it to the first step, but what did i learn at the end of the day?
"Every Man For Himself"

SCHOOL = SHIT =DD
2.4 was fun!
i keep shouting at my classmates! HAHA
phys was boring!
hate phys lesson.
went to eat lunch after school, den back to school for photo taking!

xlauraaaaaaaa
fool me once, shame on you,
fool me twice, shame on me

2010-04-21T18:37:00.004+08:00

HEHE HAHA HOHO! OMG!
i am damn dumb.
my friends sent me message on monday! BUT I JUST SAW IT TODAY!
haha. i forget i "off" the phone.
today lesson was BORING!
i totally sleep the whole period for english!
well... 3/4 OF THE CLASS IS SLEEPING TOO! HAHA
CME test is super ... HAHA!
okay okay. damn tired. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
starter to remember every single thing.
so if i say i regret, can i have one more chance?
if i say i will cherish, can i go back to the past and start all over again?
it's just now or never...

2010-04-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

=DDDDDDDDDDD
HAHAH HEHE HOHO
BOB from the biggest loser is damn damn damnnnnn CUTE ^^
he just make me LAUGH OUT LOUD!
anw, school was fine... ?
eh? no comment la.
okay okay stop here
when the clock reach 11, i need to do so some stuff ^^
hope the guys are going to go fishing on fri!
I WAN GO GO GO GO!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
smile when you are sad,
continue smiling when your heart is broken.
so just smile.

2010-04-19T20:31:00.005+08:00

I can choose to blog thousand of unhappy thing about life,
i can choose to blog thousand of stuff that don't make sense,
i can choose to blog thousand of reasons that pissed me off,
but i can also choose to blog one happy thing about life,
one stuff that make us happy,
one reason for us to carry on...

i have fun for my last training!
we did some silly stuff and i really tink the juniors will so going to rmb us!
we went to have our last netball dinner together!
with teng jiao, Sera, colleen and qin ai de! =D have fun too!
can't wait for our chalet, hopefully we can book it in time.
ohh! HAHA.
i can't believe i actually talk to my sec 3 junior Huang Teng Jiao about GUYS!
we talked like... OMG! HAHA. shhhh. secret!
anw,
xie xie lao shi! for the note!
xie xie sin ying! for the card!
xie xie coach hui zhen! for the cookie!
xie xie QIN AI DE AUNTIE Si yin! for the muffin!
uploading more pic soon! =D ( if i have =.-)

xlauraaaaaaa
we can just take one second to fall in love,
but years trying to let it go.

2010-04-18T23:30:00.004+08:00

Qin ai de si yin baked some chocolate muffin for us! ^^
tmr is so call "MY LAST TRNG!" and coach is leaving too!
going to miss everyone in the team and of course,
COACH CHUA HUI ZHEN AND QIN AI DE TAN SI YIN =D
ohh ya! i have fun fishing with my friends! they are super funny!
and i have fun going out with the girls too. =DD

xlauraaaaaaaaa
da jia wan an. =D

2010-04-18T22:51:00.004+08:00

why can't life be a little bit more fair? :@
ohhhh ya!
I TINK MY MOTHER IS DAMN COOL! =DD
SHE CAN NAG/SCOLD FROM MORNING UNTIL NIGHT!
WHOOO~ =X HAHA

xlauraaaa.
too much thing, too little time.

2010-04-15T19:53:00.005+08:00

wo de qin ai de! star ;)

School was tiring as usual. WENT TO BUY CAKE AFTER SCHOOL! for our coachhhhh! =D
hehe. oh mine! haha i really can't collect $!
so confusing la!
saw qin ai de si yin today! yay.
anw, TMR SPORT DAY! HAHA
i joined .... I DUNNOE WHAT I JOIN!
oh mine. lalala fishingggggg!
anw, i tink guys are hopeless.
why do they always "fall in love" with bitches?
seriously, PLS DON'T TELL ME. :D

xlauraaaaa
it takes 2 person to work a lie.
one who say it,
the other who believe it.

2010-04-13T22:37:00.002+08:00

HELLO! =DD
i am going to have a busy fri!
okay okay, first i have to go school =.-
den off to eat lunch with some!
go y.c.k for sport day!
and last but the least, FISHINGGG!
lala. ohhh! hehe.
today school was damn funny! and i totally slept for the whole lesson on english T.T
anw, damn sad on monday!
wo qin ai de si yin never come! AWWW T.T haha
our kuku coach is leaving soon... AGAIN... without coach...
too bad! none of my businessssss.
next monday will be the last training with her! oh gosh
which mean no more siyin! HAHA
okay la BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaa
it's logic, everyone knew.
but just unable to follow it,

2010-04-11T10:27:00.002+08:00

oh dear, oh mine, oh no. =]
HELLOOOOOO
slacked at home like always!
school tomorrow = training tomorrow = maybe can see auntie siyin! yay! HAHA
damn in to her right now. HAHA! damn fun to disturb.
anw, school tomorrow = lesson tomorrow = sleeping pill.
oh gosh, must learn to stay awake.
chinese paper is coming but i am more concern about the chalet thing.
thx some for helping,
and thx some for NOT HELPING AT ALL! HAHA
lala. nowadays... everyone is gossiping la! damn funny.
listening to those juniors nonsense just make me laugh!
they are even meaner den me! LOL! YAY i'm nice.
okay okay okay okay! TATAAAAA
anw, u tink running is tough?
try swimming, cycling and running together!
triathlon is awersome!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
there is only one reason that keep me going,
but thousand of reasons to tell me stop.

2010-04-10T18:34:00.002+08:00

triathlon is awersome! =DDDDDDDDDDD

2010-04-08T20:44:00.004+08:00

ohhh! lesson seem like a sleeping pill !
i keep falling asleep during lesson time!
i was busy drawing star for auntie Si Yin during phys and English lesson for today! ^^
and today trng was damn funny.
they played game, do silly stuff that made me LAUGH OUT LOUD!
i didn't join them, becoz i wan to stay beside siyin! HAHA. no la too lazy to move.
LOL! i sitted at a corner with siyin and coach. LAUGHED AT THEM!
they look like those little monkeys la! i suddenly felt so old at that moment. =.-
lala anw, TMR IS SPEECH DAY! so not looking forward to it! but oh well...
netballers! who wan chalet?!?!

xlauraaaaaaaaa
having one big fall is already painful enough.
let me just stop right here.

2010-04-04T14:24:00.002+08:00

oh freak.
no matter what i do, it's just not good enough.
no matter what i do, it's just wrong.
no matter what i say, it's just useless.
oh freak.
freak freak freak.

2010-04-02T16:28:00.002+08:00

HEEEEEEEEELLLO!
good friday everybody!
there's a lot of thing to do, but all i did is slack at home.
i have plan my day for tomorrow nicely AND i noe i'm so going to screw up my plan!
HAHA! eh eh eh! at least i took the first step.
okay my heart is beating fast whenever i think of monday is just 2 more days away!
we have to win the 2 other games in order to get 2nd.
either we get 2nd place or we don't get any!
we can't lose any game anymore. no no.
oh gosh! my dear C div is playing on monday too!
and lucky for them! if they win, they will be 2nd and if they lose, they still got 3rd!
well, all the best netballers! ^^

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
we got to help them,
we got to help them,
we got to help them,
because they need our help in hand...

2010-04-01T21:31:00.004+08:00

unfortunately, no car dash across me, no pot hit me and yes,
no mad women/man chop me in many pieces!
oh well!
anw, can u imagine that your body is actually older than the age you are?
oh gosh! this show how unhealthy we can be.
having a older body is a totally not cool thing!
oh come on!
HAHA! i tink i have a very old body. DD=
okay okay!
I WAN TO SEE MORE JILLIAN IN ACTION! LALA!
if only they play the biggest loser 2 hours per day! ^^
COOOOOL HAHA!
ohhh! did i mention i miss everyone?
HAHA
okay okay. i was too tired ystd! LOL!
my mood can go high to low straight away when i am tired!
oh well! OHHH JILLLLLLIANNNNNNN! ^^

xlaura
because forgiving someone take much more courage than hurting someone.

2010-03-31T18:16:00.003+08:00

tomorrow going to be a busy day.
still thinking whether i should go school or not.
oh gosh. sometime those feeling just suck.
i feel like a nobody in my class or even at my house.
i guess even if i disappear no one will notice anyway.
Perhaps the only time they notice i disappear is the time when someone actually need my help or what so ever.
i really feel like dying now.
i hope tomorrow when i walk on the street some pots just fall down from the building or even when crossing a road some cars just dash across me =.-
or maybe when i am on the way to the game, some mad women or man will take out a knife and chop me into many pieces! =.- =.- =.-
at least if i really die like this everyone will start remembering me.
now all in my mind is how am i going to die.
not like anyone actually need me in their life.
i'm just some irritating, moody, attitude, kp, gl girl they noe.
oh gosh, just let me die.
oh wait, i'm already dead...

xlauraaaa.
i wished upon the stars, but none have come true
this time, i will try one last time,
i don't wish for being the top of the world,
all i want is a chance to prove everyone wrong.

2010-03-23T20:50:00.003+08:00

HELLO!
MONDAY!
i love trng when my coach is angry! HAHA!
shall pray hard that she is going to be angry for the next trng. LOL!
(I AM NOT SICK!)
ohhh! i went to eat dinner with coach and auntie si yin (coach's friend) after trng with sera, colleen and tengjiao.
after dinner, we dragged both of them to go starbucks with us to play poker cards.
my lame coach was playing some stupid game with teng jiao
while the 4 of us is playing cards and loser must kiss someone!
HAHA AUNTIE SI YIN DAMN LOSER! ^^ but i likeeee!
she wan kiss me wor but i shy shy! HAHA!
cab home after that...
as for today, i went home after s.s because i don't wan to stay in the kuku school!
oh gosh! getting more and more lazy! can't stand myself
i have a power nap for 3 hours! lala. ^^

xlauraaaaaaaaa
it doesn't matter how others think,
because to me, it's just worth it.
you worth it.

2010-03-21T23:23:00.003+08:00

i hate school
i can't stand my family
i have this bloody cramp now and i am rolling on my bed
people around me always think they are right
people around me is always so unconsidered
people around me always purposely say thing that hurt others and thing that others don't wan to hear
lastly, i must start to learn how to appreciate stuff that i'm having, start being considered to others, stop complaining, learn to say sorry, watch what i have to say

oh gosh! let's start doing thing that we are suppose to do! ^^

xlaura
sometime i really hope i can accidentally press your number,
and pretent i don't know that is you

2010-03-17T21:09:00.003+08:00

Gym yesterday and today! =DD
damn shiock! i like training! whooo~ can't wait for monday trng!
anw, holiday is ending soon, and i haven do any hmwk/study for any subject.
omg! anw, tmr going ZOOOO with the kuku school.
sat gym again! ^^
oh gosh, i lost 0.5 kg just now, but i think i just gained back by eating pizza hut for lunch =.-
hehe! oh well! can't wait for tue match.

xlaura
dreaming of you seem like a nightmare.
because whenever i dream of you and i awake, i just can't get you off my mind.
Either let me dream of you everyday and never let me wake up
or never let me dream of you again.

2010-03-14T20:55:00.005+08:00

oh gosh! haha all i can think of this those few matches now.
hope they can update the score asap, at least we can noe what place we are standing now.
anw, not going to have any trng tmr, since everyone is soooo not free.
well, tomorrow...mmmm....

running! ( perhaps i shld?)
eating lunch with lee lao shi! =D
studying.
sera's hse? MAHJONG JONG! =DDDDDDD

i think my friends is trying to funny!
haha, i think ppl ard me is crazy! =DD
anw, we just started to love and have fun during trng, yet! we are stepping down soon.
disturb coach and her gf is likeee... DAMN FUN LA! ^^
I BET COACH AND HER GF GOING TO MISS US WHEN WE STEP DOWN!
of course, our juniors toooooooo! HAHA. damn BHB! oh well.
anw, skool reopen

monday, match
tue, match
wed, no idea
thu, trng
fri, CROSS-COUNTRY! =DD

ohh i really can't stand myself
i can slp anytime i like if i feel bored
let's see...woke up in the morning, eat den off to slp until afternoon.
den... eat and off to bed until evening.
POWER LEH! I TINK MYSELF IS COOOL
PERHAPS ONE DAY I WILL DIE IN MY BED! HAHA

xlauraaaaaaaaa.
you open that door,
smash the wall,
burn the key,
destroy it,
and hold my hand tight,
run with me...
but now i'm awake,
so it's just a dream after all.

BALL BALLLLL

2010-03-13T12:01:00.002+08:00

HELLLLLLO!
oh gosh. haha i am damn into netball this few days.
anw, my form teacher/s.s/history teacher wasn't feeling well on fri...
so i have this stupid free period! = waste my time.
hope she's feeling better arhh? i wan my lesson back! =D
math mmm... hehe. i was busy doing some stuff for the kuku netballers...
OHH! did i mention?
I LOVEEEEE MY TEAM/JUNIORS. ( i am the OLDEST! batch in the team)
so as a very nice seniors, we went to buy some stuff for the B and C teams & our coach + her gf!
okay, ART next.
i wasn't doing much stuff. slacking like always.
WHOOO~ netball next! =D
anw, i wan to win the next 3 matches badly. DD=
i'm going to step down soon, and i wan to win something!
oh gosh...
ohhh
IT'S HOLIDAY! =DDDDDD
ohhh! SIYIN SMELL GREAT! HAHA I WAN HER SMELLL!

xlaura.
because i'm not going to think about it.
i'm not going to think about it.
i'm not going to...
if i could.

oh come on!

2010-03-10T23:07:00.002+08:00

lalala.
let's see.

Thu - netball trng
Fri - netball match
Sat - runingggggggg
Sun - rest.
Next monday to Next sunday? HOLIDAY!

oh gosh, holiday also mean that... A MOUNTAIN OF HOMEWORK!
still looking forward to it?
and let's see, we maybe having some crap lesson?
but on a BRIGHT side, at least we don't have to wake up that early?
oh ya, next thu! ZOOOOOOOOOOOO =DD
Jia you everyone! =D
Because life is wonderful!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i rather drag this on and on,
because if so,
i still have that 0.01%

Don't wake my dream up.

2010-03-09T22:43:00.007+08:00

Once again...... =DDDDDDDD
oh gosh! let's seeeeeeeeeeeee...
althought lessons are boring as usual, but teachers are trying their best to help us.
people ard entertain me and make me LAUGH! & SMILEEE!
we lost the game once again! yes yes. sorry for making mistakes here and there.
but i loveeeeeeeee my team! i have this very shiok warm up!
we might complain in the game, scolding others for their mistakes and blaming whoever it is,
BUT... don't get us wrong.
somehow, in the game it's just hard to think straight.
thanks everyone for their support, but we wouldn't give up just yet.
another game on fri!
all the best people!
OHHH! take care my dear teachers,
take care my dear friends/classmates/schoolmates/netballers!
becoz after this week, IT'S ONE WEEK HOLIDAY! =DDDDDDDD
ENJOY!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i don't know how, neither do i know why.
but one thing i know for sure,
i just ask for it...

2010-03-08T20:55:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOO! =DDDDDDD
oh gosh. i think life is great. =DD and ppl ard me is cooooool.
they are all nice nice nice ppl and i love them all.
small little thing can make ppl smile easily.
a word of concern and wat sooo ever...
let ur smile SHINE this world up! =DDDDDD
hehe haha hoho.
match tomorrow at peirce.
all the best for my team! =DD
and yes, i think i have a very cooooool coach!

xlauraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
i didn't ask for the star on the sky,
the pearl under the big big ocean,
neither did i ask for the world,
all i asked for is to let me see u one last time.

SHOCKING MONDAY!

2010-03-07T23:20:00.003+08:00

HEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLOOOO =DDDD
i have fun with zhi ying and olieee today! =DD
anw, went for run ystd and thx ah boon for pushing me!
but i'm hopeless! haha still... not going to giv up just yet.
okay, as for today went shopping! i bought some stuff =D
and yes yes... i was so irritated by my hair... so i decided toooooo......
HAHAHA. OKAY DAMN COOL!
next week going to be a busy week!

xlaura.
those beautiful stars,
shine just for u.

2010-03-05T18:48:00.002+08:00

School is tiring.
this few weeks are just so pack!
oh gosh! haha. i am such a busy busy person.
anw, i loveeeeee my class girls!
i just find them wonderful! =DD
after a bad coughing last night, i am now feeling much moreeee better! =DD
unfortunately i am not going to die just yet~ sry to disappoint someee. hehe
and thx everyone ard to be so caring!
meeting zhi ying ltr on!
running with chong boon boon tmr
and sun meeting KOH ZHI YING AGAIN! =DDD

self to notes:

Do homework.
study for chemistry.
improve my kuku english. ( i got 2/25 for my english! =.- wonderful!)
PLAY ATTENTION IN CLASS.
running~

xlaura.
u appeared and den disappear...
and den i just realise, how much i need u...

2010-03-03T18:32:00.003+08:00

I didn't go gym today, i think they will chase me out straight away when they see me coughing!
if this is getting worst, i doubt i can train tmr.
as i said, W-H-O C-A-R-E.
okay, i'm trying to reach my friend but she just wouldn't pick up!
getting irritated.
i think myself is such a foooooool.
some people might seem like someone u can trust or they are your friends,
but they just aren't.
they look down on you, attitude you, make u feel lik u r a fool!
tired...

xlaura.
why didn't u ask?
why didn't u say?
why isn't you?

2010-03-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

MY BLOG IS DYING! HAHA
omg! i have been coughing lik siao and it's getting worst!
oh yes, i am "sick" not those "fever" sick just sick sick? u noe?
it's hard to explain but seriously, W-H-O C-A-R-E
CA i passed some and failed some? LIKE HELLO!
SERVE ME RIGHT FOR NOT STUDYING AT ALL!
school is getting that boring that i can't be bother going to school or even study for my exam!
but on the second thought, NO SECOND THOUGHT!

notes to self!:

Stop playing poker cards that much! HAHA
Gym tomorrow.
Start doing homework!
play attention in class.
stop complaining about HOW UNFAIR life is, although it is! -.= ( I'm still complaining!)

xlaura

when everything is so wrong, u want to make thing right.

but when there's nothing u can do, u feel so helpless and hopeing u can stop thinking about it.

2010-02-24T18:30:00.002+08:00

LALA! left with 2 bloodly papers and CA IS OVER! =D
i didn't study much seriously!
i really can't be bother with my studies now.
i was thinking of stuff that happened this few days just now,
and this is it.
2 ways to protect urself:
1)Never trust anyone in ur life. I'm serious!
no matter how close u r, DUN trust others.
RMB! once u tell other ppl, when thing spread out, oh my god, pls don't blame other ppl for spreading.
blame urself for being dumb.
So in short, thing that suppose to be a secret STAY as a secret.
2) Don't always say it's all my fault when it's not, or maybe even it is, DONT say it's all my fault.
Right or wrong there's no one can judge it, so just forget abt it, stand on your ground.
why make the whole world feel better and let urself feel so dumb and sad?
Being a nice person and keep saying sry is no use, ppl will just think u r a pushover.
so... defend urself, say 1000 of reasons (excuses) if u need to, go ahead, becoz that's what everyone is doing now.

life is just like this, simple, yet so complicated?
i been wondering the same thing for the same time.
why don't u tell me what is life about?

xlaura
~~a helping hand.~~

CRAP! haha

2010-02-21T21:15:00.003+08:00

can't believe i say this... but...
I'M STU(DYING) NOW AND I'M PROUD OF MYSELF.
i shall teach u ppl the studying steps!
first: take out the studying materials that u need! ( if u did it, u have take the first step! well done)
second: take out a notebook ( u can note down some important stuff or even summarise the whole thing! it's kind of useful to me)
now now, u are half-way ther!
third: go somewhere NO ONE can disturb u! where there's is NO noise at all!
fourth: U CAN START STUDYING NOW!
note: switch off the TV!
keep ur hp far away!
don't stare at the book and act like u are studying!
and last but not least,
STOP USING THE COM AND READ MY BLOG! GO STUDY NOW!
HAHA!
i shall stop using it too. lala.
back to my BOOK! damn it!

xlaura.
studying studying studying.
i just realise, I CAN BE HARDWORKING TOO. HEHE

2010-02-21T17:30:00.005+08:00

HELLO!
i haven been blogging nowdays!
neither have i been studying.
i'm sooooo going to fail my "O" level if this carry on.
anw, i have fun this few weeks
IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR!
CA tmr, going to study ltr on. (hopefully)
omg, i wish there is no history paper and s.s paper! DD=
all the best for ur CA ppl! =DD
can't wait for the M1 game. hehe =DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

xlaura.
one year have passed,
another too.
this year is here,
one more is next and i'm still counting...

2010-02-16T00:40:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY! i know it's late, but better late then never! =DD

HOPE U ENJOY THIS! ^^

xlaura

goodnight and goodbye.

Every min like an hour.

2010-02-06T23:37:00.003+08:00

Forever and ever...
Never ending...
Continue...
but all i want to say is goodbye.

xlaura
your smile shine,
and your tears drown the world.

2010-02-05T14:04:00.003+08:00

F**K! F**K! F**K!